That I may never have children. It occurred to me last night, and again this afternoon, that this may very well be my life. Just me, Derek, Pippin and Oliver.
I can't decide yet if I'm okay with this. At this very moment, I'm not. Being a Mom is all I've ever wanted to be. It's why I don't have a college degree in anything. I never could decide what I wanted to do because I've only ever wanted to be a mom. So having problems getting pregnant really affects me. I love kids; I love spending time with them, I love being around them, I love loving on them. And the only kids that belong to me live 800 miles away. I got a video of them two nights ago. They were rolling around on the floor loving on each other. It breaks my heart that they live so far away and I haven't seen them in two months. I need one of my own. I feel like there's a part of me missing without a child.
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