Nervous.

So, I did some research tonight, and now I'm sorry that I did. I decided to actually read up on Clomid, and now I'm worried that it isn't going to work. I've already done 4 rounds of it, and in my research I found that you're not supposed to take more than 6 rounds in your entire life. And even if you up the dose, the longer you take it, the less likely it is to work. I had no idea. So now I'm really worried that I've really gotten my hopes up. I'm seriously crushed. I also read that if you've been taking it for several months in a row, to take a month break to allow the lining to build back up and get the Clomid out of your system. HA! I did that by accident. So, if it doesn't work this month, I think I may take a couple of months break and then try one more time before giving up hope completely. But seriously, I'm really freaking out right now. If I had read this a couple of months ago, I could have done something about it. But it never crossed my mind to actually read up on it. And I have no idea why. I guess I've just been living with seeing so many different doctors telling me to take certain medications all my life without ever questioning it, that it never crossed my mind to actually do a little research. Which was dumb on my part when I decided not to go back to the fertility doctor. Dumb, dumb, dumb. My heart hurts. I was optimistic about this month and now, not so much. Again, I'm crushed. Ugh.